I am finally back with a new poem. Well, it’s definitely not new, but it’s new to y’all. It’s actually a few poems that I started writing and never finished and eventually just decided to merge together. This time I recorded it as a spoken word piece and posted it on my Instagram, which I was super afraid to do. I wasn’t afraid of receiving criticism; I was just afraid of putting my stuff out there. However, I was glad that I did because I know that I can’t be afraid forever. I ended up receiving a lot of kind words and was told that I made someone want to explore the pen again and my cousin reached out to tell me that I did a good job and that I have the voice for spoken word. So, maybe I’ll start posting more poems in that format. We’ll see. For now, you can take a listen to it below.
I miss you every day
Just wanna be there by your side
Don't wanna f--- with no one else
I'd rather run away and hide
I've cried so many tears
And I know you've done the same, too
Because it's been a sh-tty year
And I know that it has changed you
Who can blame you
When you've lost so much more than others
And more recently, your mother
I know you probably feel alone
But you should know
That's not the case
'Cause you live rent-free in my mind
With every salty tear I taste
This here is another poem that I wrote. It’s not recent, but it’s also not super old. It was written nearly three years ago. Read it and weep.
I know that if I dwell
It'll only make me feel worse
Not a soul on Earth can tell
How just being myself feels cursed
Damned if I don't
Damned if I do
Nothing can prove
That I am good enough for you
So, back into this shell I'll go
Never again do I wanna let my guard down
Never envisioned myself the jaded type
But I can sense my heart becoming hard now
Still, I know I have so much love to give
It'd be stingy for me not to
I don't wanna give it to a man that's not you
Maybe that makes me stupid
Maybe I'll never learn
That even if I don't want to
Sometimes I gotta let it burn
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted on my blog and lately I’ve been trying to get back into my writing. I was reading some of my old poems and posts and I even shared some with others and I realize that I really need to put my writing out there more and stop being so afraid. One of the main reasons I don’t post my writing more is because it’s usually personal and I always worry about people having questions for me after they read my writing and I don’t like to be that open with just anyone. However, I’m gonna put forth the effort to share my writing here on this blog.. whether I share it to my socials, that is still up in the air.
I wrote this poem a couple of months ago. I never titled it; I literally just picked a name for it as I began typing this blog post. I shall call it ‘Ghosted.’ Enjoy.
You walked out of my life
Just as randomly as you walked into it
Wish I could say I was surprised
But unfortunately, I’ve already been through it
I’ve been ghosted before
Ghosted by those that swore
Up and down
That they were never leaving
Promises they broke
Prior to breaking my heart
Led to this continuous bleeding
That it now feels
Now I’m once again grieving
The loss of something
That could’ve been so real
Although it was short-lived
Being in your presence was fun
I showed a side of me to you
That I don’t show to everyone
Vulnerable and free
My inhibitions didn’t exist
Now all I’m left with are memories
To remember the way
You’d grab onto my hips
As we locked lips upon lips
If I could turn back the hands of time and go back 15 years just to relive the excitement surrounding the release of what has undoubtedly gone on to be Usher‘s most timeless album, Confessions, I would do so in a heartbeat.
I was a 12-year-old seventh grader attending Park Middle School when Usher dropped this banger on us and I can recall life being so much more simpler back then. Everyone was elated the day this album dropped; you’d think it was a holiday or something. Shoot, as someone who was already a big Usher fan, in my eyes, it WAS a holiday.
I was enrolled in Mr. Main’s computer class back in the 7th grade and I remember whenever I had finished all of my work, I would browse the web and print out lyrics to some of my favorite songs. So, when Confessions dropped, you can bet I went to WORK with that printer. Heck, I even had my siblings and cousins coming to me to ask to either print out or write the lyrics out by hand for themselves. I was a shy kid and although I hated for people to catch me singing/rapping along to songs, I still took pride in memorizing the lyrics to my favorite songs.
When I say that I learned that album like the back of my hand, I’m not even lying. I had the tracklist burned into my mind. A song could be playing and I could tell you exactly which song was going to come on next. It was that real.
With all of the controversy surrounding Usher and Chilli’s highly-publicized breakup, “Burn” was the song that seemed to receive the most spins. You couldn’t walk outside without seeing a car driving past with “Burn” blaring out of their sound system. I repeatedly played it, too, as if my young 12-year-old heart had ever even experienced any heartbreak. Still, the song resonated with me and it still does today at 27 years old.
I know I haven’t consistently blogged in a hot minute, but I HAD to pay HOMAGE to this MASTERPIECE of an album! ❤
It’s been a bit of a wait, but wait no more as Compton native Boogie has finally gifted us with his highly-anticipated debut album, Everythings For Sale. Although the album includes features from artists such as JID, Eminem, 6LACK, Christian Scott aTunde Adjuah and Snoh Aalegra, it didn’t come off too feature-heavy and I don’t feel like any of the guest features overshadow the amazing work he brought to the table with this album.
When I say this album touched my soul with the very first track… the emotion he evokes, particularly on certain songs such as “Whose Fault,” is really reminiscent of the emotion Kendrick evokes on songs such as “u.” I honestly can’t even count the number of times I’ve played “Whose Fault” thus far; it legit makes tears well up in my eyes. You’ll see for yourself when you listen to the album!
While I’ve seen people voice their opinions about the album only being comprised of 13 tracks, for me it’s the perfect length because the songs are just that good for me to have been satisfied with what was given. He didn’t overdo it with too many features, none of the tracks come off as ‘fillers,’ and I feel like anything more than 13 would have probably made the album less cohesive.
Check out the album here!
I’m finna take it there. This time around, I’ma make it clear. Spoke some things into the Universe and they appeared. I’ll say it’s worth it; I won’t say it’s fair. Find yo’ purpose or you wasting air…
Continuing the wave he’s been riding throughout all of last year, Nipsey Hussle provides us with the official visuals to his highly-motivational Stacy Barthe-featured “Victory Lap,” which serves as the introduction to his album of the same name. Watching this video, I can’t help but to be proud because I’ve really witnessed his growth, not only as an artist, but as a businessman.
I can remember the first time I ever even heard of him. I was 15 and I had just bought the Pac’s Life album and I heard him on “International.” Man, it’s just crazy to see how far he’s come since then. You just can’t help but to respect the hustle.. or, excuse me, HUSSLE. Anytime I listen to his music or watch an interview, my motivation is just amplified. In addition to that, Victory Lap, in its entirety, has really just been getting me through life. Last year was full of changes and there were moments where I just wanted to break down and I can say that Victory Lap definitely helped me to not lose my cool, if you will. You just have to respect it.
I know I’m a little bit late but I deleted/deactivated most of my social media accounts two months ago, so since then I haven’t really been keeping myself up to date on all of the latest music and/or interviews. This morning, though, I was watching old videos on YouTube when a suggestion for this Rap Radar interview with Nipsey Hussle appeared in my YouTube feed. I’m a big Naybahood Nip fan, music and business-wise, so it was a must I take some time out to listen to this.
If you know like I do, then you know Nipsey stays dropping gems in not only his music, but his interviews as well. So, I couldn’t not listen to this and pass up what he was dropping with B. Dot and Elliott Wilson. As expected, he discusses his phenomenal and motivating Grammy-nominated album Victory Lap, projects he’s currently working on and much more! Check it out!
I’m not sure if many people know this, but Case used to be one of my faaavorite singers back when I was a kid. I can remember my mom having his Personal Conversation and Open Letter albums and playing them consistently. She’s part of the reason I have such good taste in music as it is. It’s kind of hard to find real feel-good music like this nowadays. I mean, you may come across some but they may not always leave an everlasting impression on you like songs like this one and “Faded Pictures” does for me. It’s cool, though. I’ll always have these to turn back to.
Although he’s gifted us with what may possibly be the best album of 2018, Naybahood Nip is still feeling pretty generous, as it is the season of giving. With the year coming to an end in less than two weeks, he gives in to his fans ever-growing hunger with a new track appropriately titled, “Perfect Timing.”